I will no longer say thank you to those people who favor the cosplay pictures that i took at Sukuracon........im am SOOOOO sick of everyone only favoring the damn things because they are all anime obsessed....dont get me wrong...i love Anime...but DAMN IT LOOK AT MY FREAKING OTHER ART!!!! so i will be disableing the comments also cuz im also getting sick of hearing 'Drool' or 'he's so hot' or 'SQUEE ITS *insert random char here'......so yeah....hope you guys enjoy that lil tid bit....now moving on....

as for my art....i do have pictures that i want to upload....i just have to get the want/need to upload them....and with what i was previously complaining about i dont really feel like i want to...so yeah....

Now onto my relationship! Me and 's Anniversery was on Tuesday the 28th ^__^ 5 months now ^__^ awesome huh...^__^ it made me so happy that i had to go out and buy him some sourpatch kids (like the big one pound bags), a 4 pack of blue monster energy drinks and some hot tamales ^__^ he was really surprised that i did that for him cuz usually we dont really do anything for our anniverseries....so i guess he felt bad....cuz the next day he cooked me pancakes.....and usually i dont like pancakes but damn he made me try some with peanut butter on it and gaaaaaahhhh i fell in love lol ^__^ so yeah....i guess thats really all.....see you guys later!!!

So even though the concert was like...a week ago...im deciding to tell you all about it now so you all get to suffer through it!!!!

So the concert was freaking AMAZING!!!!!! truthfully i didnt think i was going to like any of the music but i did...it was pretty awesome....the only thing that sucked about it was there was no seating except at the bar (which considering im not even 20 yet and Josh only turned 19 we werent going to get in...) and ontop of that i had a blader infection that had started that morning....@_@ yeah....but it really wasnt all that bad.....I really prefered the First two bands alot more than Children of Bodom....The first band was 'Between the Buried and Me' and the second band was 'Black Dahlia Murder' Josh liked BDM more while i liked BtBaM more >_< sadly mine was the band where after they were done all the emos tended to leave....and yes my boyfriend had to point that out to me...lol but...if he didnt pick on me like that i would think that he hated me or something ^___^

so moving on Sunday was mine and Joshs'() 4 month anniversery!!!! We didnt do alot besides have Jemo () and his date come over for a bit to bake cookies ^___^ but i am ok with it....in a way i wish that we would of done something special considering this was kinda special to me since it was the mark that meant that he was my longest relationship....but im ok with what we did do...we cuddled alot and played alot of Zelda: Twilight Princess (amazing game...specially if you are a good lil kid and play Ocarina Of Time First, i didnt my first time playing Z:TP and i didnt notice alot of the connections that i have now) lol, and because of playing so much Zelda Josh finally wants to play windwaker....i was surprised when i first heard that he hadnt played it considering he loves all the other games so much lol....

Anyways moving on.....My art is truly at a stand still.....it seems everytime i get over one sickness another one pops up....so....when im not working im in bed trying to sleep and get over the sicknesses....so please....everyone....please hang in there with me....im hopeing to go to the Zoo sometime very soon so then i will have picture then oke doke!!! and good ones at that lol!

ok people....i think this is the extent of my Journal...i think i shall be going now...love ya guys Ciao!!!!

Well, its been a while since i last updated my Journal hasnt it....lol....so what has been going on? not alot really...

Me and my love had our 3rd month anniversery, not alot to it....i worked....we were going to go to the movies togeather...but that didnt seem to work out -_- oh well....im sure we will do something for our fourth considering it will mean that he will be my longest relationship, well..... a few days after our fourth at least lol.....but that doesnt matter....sadly i have to wait four more months till i will be his longest ^____^ but im sure that wont be too hard for me to do....considering im head over heels for the boy lol ^__^

On to what is going on with me and work.....well, truthfully i almost quit the other day, there were lots of things going on and i had even given my two weeks notice....but then the directors talked to me and such and they said that they did not want me to leave so now i have decided to stay considering that they have taken care of the problem that i was having ^__^ so yey for me i wont be broke!!!!!! lol

Now Onto people relations.....First off the good stuff.....(Jemo), (my love), and i are all going to a concert this coming tuesday, truthfully its music that i have never really listened to but im actually really freakign excited, Josh played some songs from a band that will be playing and i actually liked it ^__^ i think one of the bands is called Children of Bodom (oh god please let me have gotten that right or Josh is going to never let me hear the end of it) i cant really remember the rest of the bands and im too lazy to get up and get the tickets lol....but this will be both mine and Joshs' first concert....i dont know about Jemo though.......anyways moving on.....I am no longer friends with Kenny....there comes a point where you just have to say enough...the continuous hints at how he still has feelings for me and how i shouldnt be with Josh anymore......im sick of everyone telling me how i should feel how i should act i sick of being told how to do EVERYTHING in my life......Josh is the one person that doesnt do that to me and if he thinks for one moment that i will break up with the man i believe to be my soul mate, then he is more crazy than i could have ever imagine.....what he wrote me over myspace the other day most definately crossed the line so i thought it would be best to just end the damn thing.....

Ok, Now finally onto my art......which is suffering greatly.....i dont know what to take pictures of anymore.....im so lost...and ontop of that its not like i really have time to do it...i dont wake up till like 12 and then i go to work at 2 and work till 6, come home relax and then go to bed.....see not very exciting eh? oh well.....i have decided that i need to go to the zoo though.....i want to take some pictures of wild animals damn it...and guess who is paying for everything...yep thats right for my parents to go (so we can have a ride) i have to pay for it all which is going to cost me $30.....yey....i know it doesnt seem like much....but....yey....lol anyways....

I should really be going now.....i love you all tons Ciao!!!!

Really bad day today...can i just punch someone in the face already???

First off theres work, as much as i love it, i can sometimes truly despise it...specially when the kids are having one of their off days and they all decide to be totally and utterly bad...one of the little girls was going around bitting all of the other kids...gah...it was so freaking horriable.....and then towards the end of the day my back started to hurt really badly....it felt like a freakt Raptor had grabbed ahold of me by its mouth right under my arms and was squeezing my spine to where my ribbs were going backwards....fun eh?

next off is i feel like a horriable friend....i really do....i havent spent time with her barely at all and i dont really call her anymore.....but she needs to know that i just mainly sleep anymore from being so exhausted from work....i come home, eat, take a shower, maybe watch a movie, and then go to bed....im sorry that i dont go 'omg i should really call you' while im in the middle of one of those things....but i just dont seem to have time anymore....im sorry i really am, but its not like you are calling me either....yeah you called me today but that was before work and that was just to get your books back...dont blame only me when we are both to blame....im not trying to lay the blame on you or be mean to you....but i dont want to be made to feel like im some horriable person that doesnt deserve anything good when i havent really done anything wrong...what we need to do is plan a time where we go do something togeather, nothing major....just something between you and me so we can get our friendship back....maybe thats what we need to do....who knows...

I miss Josh...plain and simple i miss him...he has only been gone for like 2 hours or so...and thats after spending 2 weeks with me...but i miss him...i miss his random kisses his random hugs or just his random looking at me and going 'gah i love you baby' i dont know how im going to get to sleep tonight...my room seems MUCH to quiet without him here...i know i must seem so weird for missing him so soon afterwards...but i do...i miss everything...

Gah, i miss my dog meisha so bad.....i noticed that even more today when i went to pet my cat oreo and he totally tore into me.....for no reason at all he just started bitting me and scratching me...i miss having a pet that would just love on me...and i dont have Aiden anymore cuz if i do try to love on him, mom just makes me feel guilty by saying im trying to steal him or some nonsense like that....

all in all this has been a crappy ass day....i cant wait for it to be tomarrow...maybe that will be better....and its one day closer till i get to be with Josh again...lol...well...i hope you all will have a good day tomarrow too...love ya all

I GOT TAGGED BY

1. Do you like animals?
Yeppers....I wish i could have a Million lol

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Nope, but there are plenty that i would love to meet....Like Bloodhaunt for one ^__^ You are too awesome!!!!

3. Are you athletic?
Psh, not at all....and i dont really mind that im not either

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
Psh, im Cubby!!!! >_<

5. How much do you weigh?
...i weigh just a tad more than i would like to....but im not telling lol

6. What's your height?
5'3" or 2" i cant really remember...i have a doctors apt. soon ill find out then...

7. Shoe size?
6 or 7 in womens....

8.How old are you?
Almost 20

9. When is your birthday?
January 30th

10. Do you like to receive giftart?
Hellz to the Yeah! lol >_< Im waiting on two people right now to give me some...*cough* Emi and Josh *cough*

11. Are you sociable?
I can be...depends on if im with someone i feel confortable....i can be a social butterfly....i do tend to like people....

12. Do you have many friends?
nope, even though i am social i tend to scare people away or they tend to hate me

13. What's your race?
Im a Lil French Canadian, German, norwegian, and Scotch Irish....so im white

14. Do you like to talk on the phone?
depends on whos on the other line! lol

15. Are you single or taken?
single wishing i was taken.

16. Do you eat meat?
Heck yes, i love meat...im a true carnivore

17. Are you paranoid?
yep, i can be....

18. Do you read a lot?
no, i mean, i like to read and would if i had more free time where i wasnt wanting to do other things...

19. Do you listen to music, what kind?
YEah i listen to TONS of music....and i will listen to everything except for old school gangster rap and gospel

20. Do you play any instruments?
i was pretty good at piano...but no...i dont

21. How long have you been drawing?
ok, well....i will change this to how long have you been taking pictures....and lets see....perfessionally it has been for about 4 years now...but i was obsessed with it since i was like 5....i would go through disposable cameras like they were candy

22. What's the meaning of life?
the meaning of life is to love, forgive, and try to make the world a better place for those around you so they will do the same for others...

23. Now tag five of your friends!

NOOOOO i cant tag my love!!!! oh wells....



BloodHaunt


buckers


rubbishart


nameless070


warriornun



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